Back into the Swing of Things

Well it seems like maybe my body has finally remembered it's purpose. I know that I'm kind of jumping the gun some might say, but I'm just excited that I've ovulated this month. God truly is in control and I know that and sometimes I think that He has to remind us/me of that fact. This doesn't of course guarantee that I'm going to be pregnant but it reassures me that my body does know what it's doing and it can ovulate when it wants to. Please pray for me this month just to be able to have the patience and if I'm not pregnant that I would be able to continue on in a good mood about the trying part and not lose hope.

Alexa is doing so good. She's finally potty trained, except for the occassional accident but we're so proud of her. Every day she does something else to amaze me. She's picking up vocabulary like crazy and of course repeating everything that you say. She loves to "mow" and play with her babies. She's definitely in the 2 year old phase of sharing with others, it doesn't happen. She thinks that everything is hers and she is into pushing and stealing the toys that she wants. She's definitely her papa's girl because she loves to be outside playing, especially with her new companion-Mocha, our dog. Jim and I have decided they're going to be best friends. Mocha is such a good dog, Alexa can push her and hug her and play with her and she just stands there. She has been such a good addition to our family.

Jimmy is getting packed and ready for his big trip with his dad to Alaska. He leaves on Friday. He's planning on doing a lot of fishing and from the sounds of it not too much sleeping. It's only dark there from 11:30pm to 4:30 am right now so my guess is that they're going to fish most of the time. He's very excited but I'm very nervous. It's a long way away and I want to make sure that he comes back to us. Please pray for him.

I am also asking everyone for prayers for a former patient of PRHC. Their little baby died on Tuesday night and they're struggling with the loss right now. Please pray for peace for them. They have had a tough time and also have a lot more to deal with. Also pray for the nurses and doctors that took care of Cody. Pray for peace.

Well that's all for right now. Hope that you're all doing well. I'll write later.
Samantha

Feeling 10 again

Have you ever felt like you were back in 2nd or 3rd grade? Well that's how I'm feeling right now. Just this overwhelming feeling of being the odd one that no one likes, like everyone else has boobs and is wearing a bra and I'm not. At church I don't feel like we're fitting in. People go places and do things and we're not invited. I'm not saying I want invited to everything but it would just be nice to be included sometimes. I often think that people are afraid to include me, or call me simply because they are afraid they're going to wake me up. WAKE ME UP, PLEASE!!! I'm missing that special fellowship with a lot of people and I'm struggling with that. I don't want to force people to invite us places but church feels very cliqueish(?) right now and I don't like that feeling and I don't feel close to anyone. Well anyone that is but good old faithful friends, Aaron and Courtney. No matter how the world flips us around, no matter where we land Courtney and I always understand what the other one needs. Thanks Courtleg!!

Through all of these feelings I'm also working on the fertility feelings. I'm trying to be more open to God and talking to him straight forward about what I want and how I want to understand his reasonings for things. In the midst of this I've talked to one of my doctor's about the situation and we're going to do a progesterone level to see where things are, as far as ovulation. I'm just praying that this will give me some answers and let me know where to go next. Please continue to pray for me with this issue.

Well in other areas Alexa is now 2 and doing well. She's potty trained, except for the occassional accident and doing pretty well with it. We're very proud of her.
Well work is very busy so I'd better go. 6 babies and 6 mom's right now. I'll talk to you all soon. Congratulations Michelle! See ya
Samantha

Alexa's Birthday Weekend

Her and Courtney hanging out while mom was the seemstress.

Her last days of being 1 year old.

The Fish Cake, imagine the candles on top.

Standing in line to ride the 4-wheeler with Uncle Jimmy.

It's birthday weekend and the cousins have come to visit. It's a little different though now because Alexa is old enough to play and fight for her toys. Before they got here I worked on the birthday cake for Alexa's party tomorrow. Well not a lot of time to blog but I thought that I would definitely get the pictures of the cake up so you could all see my masterpiece. Well I hope that you have a good weekend. See ya soon.

Samantha

2 years old

I can't believe that Alexa is going to be 2 on Sunday. She's getting so old. Potty training is going better. She's been wearing just pull-ups and she's been dry for 5 days, except for 2 accidents. We're happy with this and she's not holding it, she's telling us she has to go and sitting on her potty and papa's potty, even pooping in the potty. It seriously feels like we've been working at this potty training thing for an entire year. Oh well, I'm kind of sad too because that means no more baby, no more diapers. We haven't been able to get rid of the "rag" though. She still has to have it to go to sleep at night, I guess that's not too bad at the age of 2. She's doing really well and her vocabulary has exploded, you really have to watch what you say because she repeats everything.
Well what we've been waiting for for 2 years is finally hear, my friend Courtney is finally pregnant!! :) I'm so excited for her that I almost forgot about the fact that another month has passed and we're not pregnant again. I have just been praying that this pregnancy will take and that God will protect this little child. I know there are risks but if anyone deserves to have this baby it's Courtleg.
Well that makes almost all of my friends that were trying to have a baby pregnant now. I've got to be coming up here soon. I'm surrounded by pregnant women. I really thought that by not trying it would make it easier on me when I started my period this month but it's not as drastically changing as I thought. Maybe that means that I am not really, "not trying." Part of me wants to know what's wrong with my body and another part of me just wants God to give me the desires of my heart but at the time that he wants it. How much is too much trying or intervention?
Well I'm just trying to vent a little. Please pray for Jim and I and our family and friends and all the pregnancies of my friends. Well blog again soon. Hopefully next month at this time we will have some better news. Happy Independence Day!
Samantha