Have you ever felt like you were back in 2nd or 3rd grade? Well that's how I'm feeling right now. Just this overwhelming feeling of being the odd one that no one likes, like everyone else has boobs and is wearing a bra and I'm not. At church I don't feel like we're fitting in. People go places and do things and we're not invited. I'm not saying I want invited to everything but it would just be nice to be included sometimes. I often think that people are afraid to include me, or call me simply because they are afraid they're going to wake me up. WAKE ME UP, PLEASE!!! I'm missing that special fellowship with a lot of people and I'm struggling with that. I don't want to force people to invite us places but church feels very cliqueish(?) right now and I don't like that feeling and I don't feel close to anyone. Well anyone that is but good old faithful friends, Aaron and Courtney. No matter how the world flips us around, no matter where we land Courtney and I always understand what the other one needs. Thanks Courtleg!!
Through all of these feelings I'm also working on the fertility feelings. I'm trying to be more open to God and talking to him straight forward about what I want and how I want to understand his reasonings for things. In the midst of this I've talked to one of my doctor's about the situation and we're going to do a progesterone level to see where things are, as far as ovulation. I'm just praying that this will give me some answers and let me know where to go next. Please continue to pray for me with this issue.
Well in other areas Alexa is now 2 and doing well. She's potty trained, except for the occassional accident and doing pretty well with it. We're very proud of her.
Well work is very busy so I'd better go. 6 babies and 6 mom's right now. I'll talk to you all soon. Congratulations Michelle! See ya
Samantha
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